February 28th is a very special day in our home: the day our hearts were overjoyed to find out our little sunshine was on his way into our family. It was a long-awaited day that we had prayed so hard for.
But, it had not come easy.
Over the course of three long years, we had tried so many treatments and procedures in order to overcome my diagnosis of infertility. Our hearts ached with each negative pregnancy test. As the months turned into years, we finally consulted with a new doctor in Cary who had a high success rate with IVF, and we went through all the necessary classes/testing in order to proceed forward. I filled the prescription for the first medicine to take as soon as my cycle started. Eventually, I was one week late, and on a Saturday morning, Eddie encouraged me to take a pregnancy test, "just to be sure."
I was so hesitant because I knew the sting of a negative pregnancy test all to well. But this month was unlike any other! After 37 consecutive months of negative pregnancy tests, I could hardly believe my eyes when I stared down at a little sign that said I was PREGNANT! I tear up just reliving that morning!
I ran to the bedroom and could barely speak, but Eddie took one look at my face and instantly knew our lives were forever changed in that moment. We stood there in disbelief and pure joy, hugging each other and both crying the sweetest tears of utter happiness.
I share our story for one reason: to show just how great His love and faithfulness for all of us is.
I wish I could tell you that I always knew He would grant us the desire of our hearts. I had so many days where doubt creeped in and clouded my faith with its silent uncertainties. Then, one seemingly ordinary day turned out to be extraordinary, as our lives were changed forever with the news that a tiny little life was growing inside of me.
Our story is proof that miracles do happen. Jesus was working in our lives during our entire journey through infertility. He continued to work even through my doubt, my aching heart, and my feelings of uncertainty.
That is the perfect picture of His grace. It cannot be earned; it cannot be bought; it is a pure gift from the only One who can give it. Although we are undeserving, still He is faithful and lovingly extends His grace.
We are learning each day that we have to continue to fully trust in HIM to follow His plan. And, He has a plan for you too.
Because of the Lord's great love, we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. Lamentations 3:22-23
